Alone

There were times when I thought that the world didn't need me. That I was just some useless girl that nobody needed. That.. I was unwanted...

However, I only thought of myself, and I soon became blind with the world. I forgot who I was supposed to be, I forgot my role in the community, I became blind.

I couldn't be the person who I was once inside. I wanted to stop being who everyone wanted me to be, I wanted to be my own person, but I was too weak to stand up...

No matter how many times I scream for help in my mind, in reality, in my dreams, nobody came to my aid. I learned years ago that life wasn't like it was in the fairy tales. I realized that the story never existed, and it was just some made up fairytale, which stories were.

I already know that in real life, things like that don't come true. My story, my life.. my world all came crashing down when I stopped believing. I stopped believing that someday, someone will come and save me. I stopped believing in my dreams. I stopped believing that this was just some kind of play. I stopped believing in the world. I stopped believing lies. I stopped believing myself... and everyone else.

I was always used. Used for their own purposes. I did everything I could, even sacrifice all I had just to make them stay by my side. I just didn't want to be abandoned. I didn't want to be left alone, I just wanted someone, at least one person to stay by my side. But now, I regret the decisions I made.

My story, my life, my world, my dreams... everything crashed to pieces the day I understood how the world worked.

My world is the darkness in my heart. Everything blacks out when I wake up. Everything.. I stopped believing. I stopped believing in the truth.. I stopped believing that it was reality.